I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self
Love in the mess
It doesn't appear I've made much "progress" if you look at my life right now. In many ways I'm more non-functioning than ever. Been sick on and off for months. I have crazy anxiety that leaves me terrified to be left alone. What you don't see is my inner landscape. Despite the anxiety, I'm more … Continue reading Love in the mess
My 2019 Soundtrack
It's that time again! For 2017 I shared about every single song I connected with that year. That was way too much to do again for 2018 so I just shared about the albums I loved that year. And now for this year, I'm just going to share the highlights... the songs I loved and … Continue reading My 2019 Soundtrack
anatomy of a panic attack
Yesterday I experienced my first real anxiety/panic attack in about 4 months. It blew in like a crazy storm and then faded out just as quickly, and then the anxiety mildly rained on and off the rest of the day like a summer afternoon. I felt a need to write out exactly what was going … Continue reading anatomy of a panic attack
My 2018 Playlist
I'm a little late at doing this but here it is: the songs that defined my year. Gracie's 2018 Playlist (click here) I don't have the time to post each song and my connection to it the way I did with my 2017 playlist, so I'm just posting a link to my Spotify playlist and … Continue reading My 2018 Playlist
When God is only portrayed as masculine…
For too long, Christianity as a whole has ignored, belittled, and even outright suppressed the feminine. I've witnessed first-hand the dysfunction that such imbalance creates within individuals and families. When we portray God using only masculine terms, it's natural for women to think that godliness is more of a masculine virtue. Instead of embracing our … Continue reading When God is only portrayed as masculine…
Mother God: Exploring the Divine Feminine
Most Christians are taught and believe that God has no gender. God is God, transcending humanity. And yet, God created us in His own image, male and female He created us. So God is both genderless but also contains both masculinity and femininity. It is a divine mystery. While we believe that we can't really … Continue reading Mother God: Exploring the Divine Feminine
Wrestling with Tradition: Lessons from Fiddler on the Roof
I recently watched Fiddler on the Roof again for the first time in many years. There is so much about this movie that truly moves me, and I was always one lump in the throat away from a sob for this recent viewing. While I've always had a great interest in the story, it's themes … Continue reading Wrestling with Tradition: Lessons from Fiddler on the Roof
the great sea
There are nights when in my sleep I stand in the doorway between the worlds I stand on the edge of enlightenment and peer into a realm which reveals the answers to all my questions and the secret keys to all mysteries of life. And suddenly, I'm in. I find myself swirling in rhythm and … Continue reading the great sea
Songs that got me thru 2017
Music has been my constant lifelong companion. It's not just an artform, but more like an actual entity in my life, a constantly changing personality to accomdate me and be my best friend. Music is as much a part of me as my own organs. It's not only an external substance to consume and take into … Continue reading Songs that got me thru 2017
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