Part 17 of my spiritual journey series. It was December 2015 and I was pregnant with my third child. Despite having two previous successful homebirths under my belt, I was having a lot of uncharacteristic fears about the birth of my next child. We were planning another homebirth, but suddenly I was terrified of something going terribly … Continue reading 17: Foreshadow of Rebirth on the Winter Solstice
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15: Meeting the Serpent
Continuing my spiritual journey series: The night of October 11th, 2015, I had one of the most profound dreams of my life thusfar: I am standing naked with a snake wrapped around me. Starting with it's tail at my head, the snake is wrapped around my head, shoulders, and chest, with its head ending at my … Continue reading 15: Meeting the Serpent
12: Wrestling with Myself, Part 2
Continuing yesterday's post, Day 11: Wrestling with Myself, Part 1 I emailed a few of my blogs posts to my doctor and he started reading some other posts on my blog. When we met, he brought up a post I wrote about demons. In this post, I detailed a dream I'd had years before during my health … Continue reading 12: Wrestling with Myself, Part 2
10: Communion, Part 2
Continuing yesterday's post, Day 9: Communion, Part 1. After my bizarre shaking episode at the wedding, it happened two more times in the following two weeks. Each time was less severe and I made sure to lay down as soon as I felt it coming over me. I was worried I had some sort of … Continue reading 10: Communion, Part 2
8: Wrestling with God After the Death of My Child
Six years ago today my first child died at only 18 months old. She was diagnosed with cancer and a month later she was gone. Her sickness, death, and the events which transpired immediately afterwards were incredibly traumatic for my husband and I. Our families were devastated. Our hearts were broken. And we were all … Continue reading 8: Wrestling with God After the Death of My Child
Day 7: Be Careful What You Pray For: the Cost of Awakening
Before continuing with my story, I'd like to pause a bit and share a few things. On day 2 or 3 of this blogs series, I started having second thoughts about everything I'm about to write in the coming weeks. Having already started, I knew I couldn't quit. But I still felt a little worried … Continue reading Day 7: Be Careful What You Pray For: the Cost of Awakening
Day 6: Beginnings of Awakening
In the summer of 2011, I had been married for a year and was pregnant with our first child. One day sitting at the computer, I realized something felt off about me, as if I'd lost some very fundamental part of myself. I had been rather numb without even realizing it and could hardly put … Continue reading Day 6: Beginnings of Awakening
4: Discovering the Hebrew Roots of Christianity
I was 19, finally finished with high school, and feeling totally burned out on church - yet again, I had to experience another church split and this one was the absolute worst. It was a complete shit storm all the way around and I know many of us still haven't recovered all these years later. … Continue reading 4: Discovering the Hebrew Roots of Christianity
3: My Charismatic Years
(Continuing from yesterday's post, Day 2: When Grace Met Jesus ) I had been so sheltered at home and church all summer long, surrounded by light and love. And the first day back to school is when I first noticed my heightened sensitivity. It felt so dark. It was as if I couldn't breathe. By day … Continue reading 3: My Charismatic Years
2: When Grace Met Jesus
I was 15 years old, just finished my freshman year of high school, and I was quickly outgrowing my desires for worldy materialism. During Spring Break a couple months earlier, I somehow started connecting with God in a new way. My desire to truly know him became stronger. My mom and a couple other ladies … Continue reading 2: When Grace Met Jesus
