I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self
self-awareness
to engage the madness or not…
It's coming over me again. Oh boy. A whole lot of feelings coming up like a tsunami wave, seemingly out of nowhere. The anxiety knocks me over and I don't know if I should try to stand or just lay here for awhile and hope it passes soon. In the past year I developed a … Continue reading to engage the madness or not…
Explain Yourself
You know what's annoying? The chronic obnoxious feeling that I need to explain myself and make disclaimers about anything I may say and do. It extends mostly to social media/blogging, since that is where I express myself the most. Between my easily confused satirical pieces or my desire to break outside the typical religious box, … Continue reading Explain Yourself
Dwelling Deeper Within
Discontent. Restless. Call it depression, if you will. Nothing satisfies. Everything has lost its appeal. "It seems that I've completely fallen out of love. Nothing impresses me anymore." -4/9/09 The well-meaning Christians always told me that this feeling was an indication that I needed to "press in" more with the Lord. The world and all … Continue reading Dwelling Deeper Within
