The past two weeks have felt like death. Yesterday I finally came up for air. I am so tired, but relieved. Music and macrame have been my saving grace. I know I'm like 20 years late here, I discovered "Thank U" by Alanis Morissette and I listen to it on repeat and cry. Somehow it … Continue reading Maybe It’s All Ok
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I am a vessel of Love
8.15.21 What is my role right now?What has my role ever been? Have I ever argued or coerced myself into love and health and acceptance and peace and a life worth living? No. Ok. Then there's no way I could argue or coerce anyone else into such a life worth living either. I release my … Continue reading I am a vessel of Love
When Divine Meets Human
There are many reasons to be happy and many reasons to be unhappy. I'm still hormonal crazy lady half the time, easily triggered and still sensitive as fuck. But when I'm good these days... I'm REALLY good. The shifting was intense, and the rewards are immense. I promised to myself that if I ever got … Continue reading When Divine Meets Human
Wherever You Are, You Are Here
There's nothing wrong with living in the past or in the future. There's nothing wrong with failing to (or choosing not to) "be here now" in the present. Is the present moment more enlightened than your past experiences or your fantasies of the future? How could we possibly know? And this assumes that there really … Continue reading Wherever You Are, You Are Here
Beloved Children of God
Your belief in Jesus does not save you. Jesus saves you. Not your belief. Salvation is not a product of your mind. Your ability to believe or not believe (or struggle to believe) in the power or person of Jesus has no bearing on your salvation. I can refuse to believe in the sun. But … Continue reading Beloved Children of God
Non-dualism and Spiritual Bypassing are NOT the Same Thing
If your takeaway from non-dualism is that your feelings, desires, and experiences are irrelevant or even a hindrance to enlightenment or a fulfilling life, then you don't understand non-dualism.
The Whole Self
I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self
Love in the mess
It doesn't appear I've made much "progress" if you look at my life right now. In many ways I'm more non-functioning than ever. Been sick on and off for months. I have crazy anxiety that leaves me terrified to be left alone. What you don't see is my inner landscape. Despite the anxiety, I'm more … Continue reading Love in the mess
fear is the great enemy
Fear is the great enemy, yet we regard it as our friend. We defend fear at every turn while turning our backs on our neighbors. If perfect love casts out fear, then fear cannot be associated with a loving God. Either God is loving and merciful, or He is not. I will not let the … Continue reading fear is the great enemy
Vulnerable
Why is it so hard to be vulnerable with others? Oh, I don't know, because vulnerability is vulnerability?! Because people can hurt you when you let your guard down? Because when you've spoken up, people don't listen? Or instead, they judge you up and down and now you have to bear the weight of their … Continue reading Vulnerable
grace in the night 