I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self
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Love in the mess
It doesn't appear I've made much "progress" if you look at my life right now. In many ways I'm more non-functioning than ever. Been sick on and off for months. I have crazy anxiety that leaves me terrified to be left alone. What you don't see is my inner landscape. Despite the anxiety, I'm more … Continue reading Love in the mess
go back to the mist
Go back to the mist from whence you came. Go back to that ancient realm where everything is energy and you are simply an unimagined dream; the non-existence before conception; merely potential, and nothing more. Go back to being what cannot touch me, what cannot thrill me, what cannot leave me, what cannot hurt me. … Continue reading go back to the mist
fear is the great enemy
Fear is the great enemy, yet we regard it as our friend. We defend fear at every turn while turning our backs on our neighbors. If perfect love casts out fear, then fear cannot be associated with a loving God. Either God is loving and merciful, or He is not. I will not let the … Continue reading fear is the great enemy
I am not
I am not your sun: I do not make your flowers grow. I do not give you warmth and glow. I am not your moon: I do not light up your night and I do not control your tides. I am not your fire, nor am I your rain. Neither earth nor wind am I, … Continue reading I am not
Vulnerable
Why is it so hard to be vulnerable with others? Oh, I don't know, because vulnerability is vulnerability?! Because people can hurt you when you let your guard down? Because when you've spoken up, people don't listen? Or instead, they judge you up and down and now you have to bear the weight of their … Continue reading Vulnerable
We’re more alike than different
This post continues the themes I wrote about several days ago in my post Strike the Root (click link to read). My dear friend Jeremy recently stated that, "We're more alike than different." This is an idea I've mulled over for awhile, and it's becoming more true to me as I explore what motivates all the different … Continue reading We’re more alike than different
Strike the Root
Like many others, I find myself emotionally charged right now in the aftermath of yet another mass school shooting. Everyone is arguing over gun control and I'm literally getting a headache thinking through all of it. I like to think of myself as an open-minded person, and when it comes to the topic of gun … Continue reading Strike the Root
The Shifting Light
My favorite times of day are the times when the light shifts. That's when I can feel the breath of the expansive living soul of the universe brush against my own breathing soul. There's something magical about the time just before dawn. I feel closer to all the goodness of life right before the sun … Continue reading The Shifting Light
You Are In Love
"You can hear it in the silence..." You would call me all the time, and often there would be long periods of silence when neither of us had anything to say. We let the silence linger. Instead of deciding the conversation was over and hanging up, we stayed on the line. It's not that we … Continue reading You Are In Love
