The Whole Self

I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self

Love in the mess

It doesn't appear I've made much "progress" if you look at my life right now. In many ways I'm more non-functioning than ever. Been sick on and off for months. I have crazy anxiety that leaves me terrified to be left alone. What you don't see is my inner landscape. Despite the anxiety, I'm more … Continue reading Love in the mess

strong heart

11.22.2017 Being strong has nothing to do with armour and swords, it has nothing to do with fighting. Rather, being strong means navigating life with your shell completely cracked open, with your heart totally exposed to the world. The great reversal of life is that we perceive ourselves to be weak and vulnerable, and therefore, … Continue reading strong heart