I have tried to fit into the countless boxes of others' experiences. I have divided myself into countless pieces that would fit into those countless boxes. All of me will not fit into someone else's box. So I cut off the small part that will… …over and over again, with each small box of someone … Continue reading The Whole Self
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12: Wrestling with Myself, Part 2
Continuing yesterday's post, Day 11: Wrestling with Myself, Part 1 I emailed a few of my blogs posts to my doctor and he started reading some other posts on my blog. When we met, he brought up a post I wrote about demons. In this post, I detailed a dream I'd had years before during my health … Continue reading 12: Wrestling with Myself, Part 2
10: Communion, Part 2
Continuing yesterday's post, Day 9: Communion, Part 1. After my bizarre shaking episode at the wedding, it happened two more times in the following two weeks. Each time was less severe and I made sure to lay down as soon as I felt it coming over me. I was worried I had some sort of … Continue reading 10: Communion, Part 2
9: Communion, Part 1
2014 was a rough year for me. Although the birth of our second child was healing in so many ways, becoming a mother again was dreadfully difficult for me at that time. Our new daughter had an insane appetite for life and required so much attention and supervision. She also nursed constantly and I was … Continue reading 9: Communion, Part 1
8: Wrestling with God After the Death of My Child
Six years ago today my first child died at only 18 months old. She was diagnosed with cancer and a month later she was gone. Her sickness, death, and the events which transpired immediately afterwards were incredibly traumatic for my husband and I. Our families were devastated. Our hearts were broken. And we were all … Continue reading 8: Wrestling with God After the Death of My Child
Day 7: Be Careful What You Pray For: the Cost of Awakening
Before continuing with my story, I'd like to pause a bit and share a few things. On day 2 or 3 of this blogs series, I started having second thoughts about everything I'm about to write in the coming weeks. Having already started, I knew I couldn't quit. But I still felt a little worried … Continue reading Day 7: Be Careful What You Pray For: the Cost of Awakening
3: My Charismatic Years
(Continuing from yesterday's post, Day 2: When Grace Met Jesus ) I had been so sheltered at home and church all summer long, surrounded by light and love. And the first day back to school is when I first noticed my heightened sensitivity. It felt so dark. It was as if I couldn't breathe. By day … Continue reading 3: My Charismatic Years
My Spiritual Journey – new blog series
Beginning tomorrow, I'm launching a daily blogging series about my spiritual experiences of the past two years and how they have transformed my faith and worldview. A few weeks ago I thought I'd like to try another daily blogging challenge for a month like I did last year. I still love the idea of doing it … Continue reading My Spiritual Journey – new blog series
this is enough
It's been what feels like forever since I let myself believe that you're not just a trickster or an apathetic monster. I don't know who or what you are anymore and it really doesn't bother me right now because the details are irrelevant when presented with that old familiar feeling, which right now, is the … Continue reading this is enough
light of day
This light feels so fragile in the midst of the winds of change These winds may blow it out or fan it into larger flames You can make yourself a target by standing up for truth and you may be quickly taken down and your bravery may seem of no use But maybe, just maybe, … Continue reading light of day
