This morning I woke up with an old Avril Lavigne song stuck in my head. Appropriate, since I had just dreamed about going back to middle school, and I listened to Lavigne's freshman album Let Go on repeat when I was in 8th grade. I'm used to dreaming of going back to high school. It's … Continue reading Avril Lavigne and Me: Thoughts on Authenticity
August 7th, 2017 God bless the Positives: The motivational speakers, the encouragers, the deep quote repeaters, the sunny smilers, the overcomers and rise-abovers God bless them. I am not one of them. I'm the moon who goes through her phases, where light is overcome by shadow, and where shadow eventually gives way to light... but … Continue reading just a mirror
This started as a ramble on Facebook that kept going and going and so I figured I'd make it a blog post instead. The internet exposes you to so many conversations and I never know if I really want to be the one to come in and drop a bomb with my questions or observations … Continue reading Truth invites a wrestling match
Apologies to my email subscribers... you may have received a post that was not meant to be published (I've been having trouble with my WordPress app since I updated it). So if you read a post titled "20" that seems incomplete... yes, it's incomplete 🙂 I'm still working on my spiritual journey series, and it's … Continue reading Navigating social media
Part 18 of my spiritual journey series. As a big fan of the musician Jewel, I was excited to purchase and read her memoir, Never Broken in December of 2015. I loved reading her life story, and her theme of rebirth was really pinging something deep in me. In her book, she references the work … Continue reading 18: Wrestling with Identity According to Christian Theology
I don't believe we have full control of our destiny. We aren't in complete control of our lives. There is some greater power at work that keeps pulling strings along the way. But I also don't believe we have no control. I don't believe everything we do is orchestrated by unseen forces and that we … Continue reading Do I Control My Life?
This morning I fell into a deep pit that I didn’t know how to get out of. Old stories were repeating, and making music out of it (no matter how awesome it sounded) was making me feel worse. I just felt really, really depressed.
At one point Kasey Musgraves’ song “Rainbow” wandered into my mind, and I pondered the message. What was there to be depressed about, really? The thing I was struggling with didn’t deserve to rule my day or determine my worth or happiness.
I was thinking through what to do. It seemed like a good time to just work on a new macrame piece. I wanted to try a rainbow design that Mary Maker Studio posted a tutorial of on Instagram. My new yarn had arrived and so I now had a wide color palette to choose from. After working through several project ideas in my…
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Part 17 of my spiritual journey series. It was December 2015 and I was pregnant with my third child. Despite having two previous successful homebirths under my belt, I was having a lot of uncharacteristic fears about the birth of my next child. We were planning another homebirth, but suddenly I was terrified of something going terribly … Continue reading 17: Foreshadow of Rebirth on the Winter Solstice
Yesterday I experienced my first real anxiety/panic attack in about 4 months. It blew in like a crazy storm and then faded out just as quickly, and then the anxiety mildly rained on and off the rest of the day like a summer afternoon. I felt a need to write out exactly what was going … Continue reading anatomy of a panic attack
Part 16 of my spiritual journey series. In October of 2015, I decided to take the homeopathic remedy Phosphorus 1M. I had no idea what I was doing. I knew this remedy had something to do with openness/boundaries, and I was trying to be more open to myself and spiritual direction. I'd only taken the remedy … Continue reading 16: Meeting Myself with Phosphorus