Avril Lavigne and Me: Thoughts on Authenticity

This morning I woke up with an old Avril Lavigne song stuck in my head. Appropriate, since I had just dreamed about going back to middle school, and I listened to Lavigne's freshman album Let Go on repeat when I was in 8th grade. I'm used to dreaming of going back to high school. It's … Continue reading Avril Lavigne and Me: Thoughts on Authenticity

just a mirror

August 7th, 2017 God bless the Positives: The motivational speakers, the encouragers, the deep quote repeaters, the sunny smilers, the overcomers and rise-abovers God bless them. I am not one of them. I'm the moon who goes through her phases, where light is overcome by shadow, and where shadow eventually gives way to light... but … Continue reading just a mirror

18: Wrestling with Identity According to Christian Theology

Part 18 of my spiritual journey series. As a big fan of the musician Jewel, I was excited to purchase and read her memoir, Never Broken in December of 2015. I loved reading her life story, and her theme of rebirth was really pinging something deep in me. In her book, she references the work … Continue reading 18: Wrestling with Identity According to Christian Theology

There’s Always Been a Rainbow…

GRACIE NOON

This morning I fell into a deep pit that I didn’t know how to get out of. Old stories were repeating, and making music out of it (no matter how awesome it sounded) was making me feel worse. I just felt really, really depressed.

At one point Kasey Musgraves’ song “Rainbow” wandered into my mind, and I pondered the message. What was there to be depressed about, really? The thing I was struggling with didn’t deserve to rule my day or determine my worth or happiness.

I was thinking through what to do. It seemed like a good time to just work on a new macrame piece. I wanted to try a rainbow design that Mary Maker Studio posted a tutorial of on Instagram. My new yarn had arrived and so I now had a wide color palette to choose from. After working through several project ideas in my…

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17: Foreshadow of Rebirth on the Winter Solstice 

Part 17 of my spiritual journey series. It was December 2015 and I was pregnant with my third child. Despite having two previous successful homebirths under my belt, I was having a lot of uncharacteristic fears about the birth of my next child. We were planning another homebirth, but suddenly I was terrified of something going terribly … Continue reading 17: Foreshadow of Rebirth on the Winter Solstice