This summer I've been doing a lot of gardening. I've bought lots of flowers and planted lots of seeds, and not all of these flowers and seeds have made it. Some seeds spring up easily, while others refuse to sprout. Children and animals have knocked over some of my planters, losing soil and seed. Our … Continue reading Life is Risk
the deep stuff
How banana pudding taught me that I am never alone
I recently stumbled into the Enneagram personality typing system and it's been incredibly eye-opening for me. These past several days I've been having some lightbulb moments and new insights into my life. The other day I briefly thought about my attraction of endless synchronicites. I was recalling the recent "banana pudding" synchronicity. About a week … Continue reading How banana pudding taught me that I am never alone
Projections of the Past
This post continues the themes of Strike the Root and We're more alike than different. Last night I came across more commentary about the youth taking a stand to demand gun reform. And I felt so conflicted. I find myself really wanting to support their efforts because how can you deny them? How can you get in the … Continue reading Projections of the Past
We’re more alike than different
This post continues the themes I wrote about several days ago in my post Strike the Root (click link to read). My dear friend Jeremy recently stated that, "We're more alike than different." This is an idea I've mulled over for awhile, and it's becoming more true to me as I explore what motivates all the different … Continue reading We’re more alike than different
Strike the Root
Like many others, I find myself emotionally charged right now in the aftermath of yet another mass school shooting. Everyone is arguing over gun control and I'm literally getting a headache thinking through all of it. I like to think of myself as an open-minded person, and when it comes to the topic of gun … Continue reading Strike the Root
The Shifting Light
My favorite times of day are the times when the light shifts. That's when I can feel the breath of the expansive living soul of the universe brush against my own breathing soul. There's something magical about the time just before dawn. I feel closer to all the goodness of life right before the sun … Continue reading The Shifting Light
Death, the Comforter
Last spring I had an interesting encounter with Death. Ok, not actual death, but a personification of death. I'll skip the fun details as to how it began. What eventually happened is that I had a writing conversation with some aspect of myself that identified as Death personified. We had a good chat about some … Continue reading Death, the Comforter
Dwelling Deeper Within
Discontent. Restless. Call it depression, if you will. Nothing satisfies. Everything has lost its appeal. "It seems that I've completely fallen out of love. Nothing impresses me anymore." -4/9/09 The well-meaning Christians always told me that this feeling was an indication that I needed to "press in" more with the Lord. The world and all … Continue reading Dwelling Deeper Within
Past Present Future Me
The first time I sincerely contemplated the non-existance of God was this past February. I'd been reading through old journals, trying to capture significant moments to give an overview of my life and the struggles I've faced... trying to understand why I am the way I am. I had just finished reading my 8th grade … Continue reading Past Present Future Me
we only exist right now
"There is only Right Now No past with its failures No future with its accomplishments There is only Right Now with the me that Is" -there is only Right Now 7/7/17 For years, I've been trying really hard to get my shit together. To organize my life. To figure out how to operate and get things … Continue reading we only exist right now
