It doesn't appear I've made much "progress" if you look at my life right now. In many ways I'm more non-functioning than ever. Been sick on and off for months. I have crazy anxiety that leaves me terrified to be left alone. What you don't see is my inner landscape. Despite the anxiety, I'm more … Continue reading Love in the mess
health
Lunar Fertility
Three of my four children were conceived during a first quarter moon phase, the same moon phase at the time of my birth.
Should Mothers Consume the Placenta After Birth?
It's been years since I blogged about a health topic and I honestly thought those days were over, but... here I am. I originally planned to make this a Facebook post just to share with my friends, but I had too many links and too much to say, so I figured I'd make it a … Continue reading Should Mothers Consume the Placenta After Birth?
Mood’s Out Swinging
Back in high school I was a serious fan of the Christian punk rock band Relient K. Me and my friends at youth group were always singing their songs and singing their praises. I even convinced my very gullible friend that I had actually dated Matt Thiessen, the lead singer and song-writer. I was joking … Continue reading Mood’s Out Swinging
Channeling anxious energy into productive energy
I've been dealing with anxiety on and off this past week. When the undercurrent is there, it doesn't take much to set me off and turn me into spastic basket case. I had a bad attack last night and this morning I could feel it coming on again. In more recent times, I've decided against … Continue reading Channeling anxious energy into productive energy
the pains of the past
Do the pains of the past ever stop hurting? Does one ever "get over" anything? Is there a way to process something to where it never again rises up and seeks to destroy you? I go through this process every cycle and now it's just starting to feel like torture. Because it's the same old … Continue reading the pains of the past
to engage the madness or not…
It's coming over me again. Oh boy. A whole lot of feelings coming up like a tsunami wave, seemingly out of nowhere. The anxiety knocks me over and I don't know if I should try to stand or just lay here for awhile and hope it passes soon. In the past year I developed a … Continue reading to engage the madness or not…
In the flow
Things are feeling off for me. I just started my period yesterday and apparently the physical flow threw me into a flow of feelings. Yesterday's post was so overly poetic, it came out of nowhere and shocked me. Although I haven't had a chance to write today, I have felt that same sort of flow … Continue reading In the flow
Death, the Comforter
Last spring I had an interesting encounter with Death. Ok, not actual death, but a personification of death. I'll skip the fun details as to how it began. What eventually happened is that I had a writing conversation with some aspect of myself that identified as Death personified. We had a good chat about some … Continue reading Death, the Comforter
My mineral friend, Rose Quartz
Through a series of events last month, I found myself in a crystal shop picking through a basket of raw chunks of rose quartz. I had developed a growing interest in rose quartz, mostly because I think it's pretty, but also because it's supposedly good for healing a broken heart, etc. I had no idea … Continue reading My mineral friend, Rose Quartz
