Why is it so hard to be vulnerable with others? Oh, I don't know, because vulnerability is vulnerability?! Because people can hurt you when you let your guard down? Because when you've spoken up, people don't listen? Or instead, they judge you up and down and now you have to bear the weight of their … Continue reading Vulnerable
from one full moon to another
Projections of the Past
This post continues the themes of Strike the Root and We're more alike than different. Last night I came across more commentary about the youth taking a stand to demand gun reform. And I felt so conflicted. I find myself really wanting to support their efforts because how can you deny them? How can you get in the … Continue reading Projections of the Past
We’re more alike than different
This post continues the themes I wrote about several days ago in my post Strike the Root (click link to read). My dear friend Jeremy recently stated that, "We're more alike than different." This is an idea I've mulled over for awhile, and it's becoming more true to me as I explore what motivates all the different … Continue reading We’re more alike than different
the pains of the past
Do the pains of the past ever stop hurting? Does one ever "get over" anything? Is there a way to process something to where it never again rises up and seeks to destroy you? I go through this process every cycle and now it's just starting to feel like torture. Because it's the same old … Continue reading the pains of the past
the great sea
There are nights when in my sleep I stand in the doorway between the worlds I stand on the edge of enlightenment and peer into a realm which reveals the answers to all my questions and the secret keys to all mysteries of life. And suddenly, I'm in. I find myself swirling in rhythm and … Continue reading the great sea
Strike the Root
Like many others, I find myself emotionally charged right now in the aftermath of yet another mass school shooting. Everyone is arguing over gun control and I'm literally getting a headache thinking through all of it. I like to think of myself as an open-minded person, and when it comes to the topic of gun … Continue reading Strike the Root
The Shifting Light
My favorite times of day are the times when the light shifts. That's when I can feel the breath of the expansive living soul of the universe brush against my own breathing soul. There's something magical about the time just before dawn. I feel closer to all the goodness of life right before the sun … Continue reading The Shifting Light
Death, the Comforter
Last spring I had an interesting encounter with Death. Ok, not actual death, but a personification of death. I'll skip the fun details as to how it began. What eventually happened is that I had a writing conversation with some aspect of myself that identified as Death personified. We had a good chat about some … Continue reading Death, the Comforter
The Dramatic Voice
Drama is born of drama. Sometimes I feel like I need to scream in order to be heard. If the reality is not enough to be convincing, then we can just put on a performance. People want to be entertained. Ultimately we love the drama. I'm not sure how it got this way. The outward … Continue reading The Dramatic Voice
You Are In Love
"You can hear it in the silence..." You would call me all the time, and often there would be long periods of silence when neither of us had anything to say. We let the silence linger. Instead of deciding the conversation was over and hanging up, we stayed on the line. It's not that we … Continue reading You Are In Love
grace in the night 