There is conflict, I feel it raging within. It is an empathy for others, and for myself. It is all out war and it can be exhausting. And then, a grand revelation: I don't have to pick sides. Chaos will tell me that if I just pick an opinion, pick a side, make up my … Continue reading I do not need resolution for mental conflict
A poem for my 30th birthday. Hopefully soon I will write a full blog post exploring the theme of this poem.
April 12th, 2019
I often wondered if Home was a real place.
I spent 30 years trying to find it.
No matter where I was,
I never felt like I belonged,
so out of place
so restless and so, so lost.
I just wanted to find a place
to sink my roots into
and grow like crazy.
I begged the land to take me
I begged the people to accept me
I begged God to be my everything
and I begged heaven to somehow save me
But Home was with me all along,
I just never knew it.
I was walking around in it
(even if I was a foot off the ground).
How did I not see
the most visible parts of me?
How could I not feel
the most tangible parts of me?
This right here,
this flesh and blood and bones
this skin and hair…
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February 28th: I awoke in the night and knew the answer was, is, and always will be, YES. The question is irrelevant. The questions are almost always irrelevant. The questions are just meant to push me to the ultimate answer of YES. Here is life's grand secret: Yes. It's always the answer. Yes. One Yes … Continue reading YES
I'm a little late at doing this but here it is: the songs that defined my year. Gracie's 2018 Playlist (click here) I don't have the time to post each song and my connection to it the way I did with my 2017 playlist, so I'm just posting a link to my Spotify playlist and … Continue reading My 2018 Playlist
For too long, Christianity as a whole has ignored, belittled, and even outright suppressed the feminine. I've witnessed first-hand the dysfunction that such imbalance creates within individuals and families. When we portray God using only masculine terms, it's natural for women to think that godliness is more of a masculine virtue. Instead of embracing our … Continue reading When God is only portrayed as masculine…
Most Christians are taught and believe that God has no gender. God is God, transcending humanity. And yet, God created us in His own image, male and female He created us. So God is both genderless but also contains both masculinity and femininity. It is a divine mystery. While we believe that we can't really … Continue reading Mother God: Exploring the Divine Feminine
What would you do If there was no one to stop you? What would you say If you could speak your whole truth? There are less rules than we think there are Ignore all the noise, look into your heart You'll find a light to lead you in the dark Your way will be made … Continue reading August 26
I recently watched Fiddler on the Roof again for the first time in many years. There is so much about this movie that truly moves me, and I was always one lump in the throat away from a sob for this recent viewing. While I've always had a great interest in the story, it's themes … Continue reading Wrestling with Tradition: Lessons from Fiddler on the Roof
This summer I've been doing a lot of gardening. I've bought lots of flowers and planted lots of seeds, and not all of these flowers and seeds have made it. Some seeds spring up easily, while others refuse to sprout. Children and animals have knocked over some of my planters, losing soil and seed. Our … Continue reading Life is Risk
I recently stumbled into the Enneagram personality typing system and it's been incredibly eye-opening for me. These past several days I've been having some lightbulb moments and new insights into my life. The other day I briefly thought about my attraction of endless synchronicites. I was recalling the recent "banana pudding" synchronicity. About a week … Continue reading How banana pudding taught me that I am never alone