On the first of this year, I decided, at long last, to pull out my knitting needles. It had been well over a year since I had a knitting project and I could tolerate this sad fact no longer. I decided to knit up another cowl that I have made two times before, a simple pattern that I’ve never had trouble with.
After I completed the first few rows and I read the next instructions, I became terribly confused. I suddenly realized I had started it all wrong, having completely mis-read the initial instructions. I would have to take the whole thing apart and start over.
I was not happy. I threw the project away from me and buried myself in bed, silently brooding.
Being aware of my frustration, I realized how silly it was to be so upset over something so trivial. I took some deep breaths and tried to cleanse myself and renew my mind. And as I released my expectations and sense of failure, inspiration struck.
My mind started to knit. I began creating my own pattern, a completely different project. I was suddenly energized by a new excited sense of possibility and I went right to work.
I wasn’t entirely sure what I was making- either a wall-hanging or a table runner. But I knit lots of cables and twists and it was sooo fun. I thoroughly enjoyed it.
And then I had an interesting thought. The yarn I was using was a beautiful blue, a brand new ball I had recently picked up, and the word “blueprint” came to mind. My mind was already full of ideas of building and creating. This was the first day of the New Year, and I had decided I would make 2018 the year I build (I wrote an entire blog post about it- click here to read).
Here’s the recap: I had tried to knit an old pattern that I’ve never had trouble with until now. This time it just wasn’t working out. So instead, I created my own pattern.
In the past year or so I’ve been leaving behind old patterns and old habits that no longer serve me. The old ways just don’t work for me anymore, no matter how hard I’ve tried to make them. It’s finally time for me to stop relying on the beliefs and experiences of others and begin paying attention to my own intuition and experiences. It’s time for me to find my own way.
As my long-time favorite t-shirt says, “Don’t follow a path. Make one.”
This piece of knitting is my new blueprint for life. It reminds me to follow where my intuition and creativity lead, for the path they create is none other than the path to myself.