This morning I asked my body what it needs. I’ve been feeling pretty bad lately. I’m emotionally stable for the first time in a year, but my body is still trying to find equilibrium. This is the first time in years I haven’t been pregnant or breastfeeding, so my hormones are trying to find their new normal.
As I laid in bed hoping to hear some sort of response from my body on what it needs to heal, I was reminded of what I already knew:
FOOD. WATER. REST.
So I wrote this down and added different ways to fulfill these needs.
After I finished writing down my ideas, I turned and looked out my bedroom window. I was arrested by the sight of large animals moving through the woods far off. I jumped up and moved closer to the window to get a better look. I realized they were several very large turkeys. They were difficult to see, and I eventually lost sight of them moving further into the woods.
I have a strong connection with birds. I am visited by many different kinds of birds at different times, and each has a specific message to tell me. Today’s visitation was clearly a response to my question this morning: What does my body need?
I immediately thought of thanksgiving… and of being thankful. It brought to mind a dream I had before Thanksgiving this past year. I went through my notebook to read it again, and was inspired by my final commentary on the dream:
I have so much to be thankful for, and that’s what I should focus on. Stop focusing so hard on all the things I want to fix, and focus on the things that are already perfect. I am surrounded by love, of husband and family and friends. Love is perfect, and that’s what I should focus on. I am thankful for love.
With this message of thanksgiving in my heart, my husband later hollered up the stairs that the turkeys were now behind the house and could be seen from the kitchen window. Our family stood there watching the turkeys pass by, and my husband said there were 12 of them… 12 very large male turkeys. Not a common sight. I felt so blessed by their presence, it was almost unbelievable.
Thanksgiving was the obvious message, but I wondered what else the turkeys could teach me.
Being that these were all males, and very large ones at that, I feel there is a message of strength here. My body feels pathetically weak these days, but I feel a new sense of strength within me. One of the things I’ve done in the past year is try to get in touch with my animus (masculine half). Unfortunately, I buried that part of me years ago when I got married, abandoning my own strength and instead relying on my husband. It hasn’t turned out too well for me. But now I’m learning to be independent again, to reclaim my own strength and voice. Seeing all these male turkeys today reminded me of reclaiming my own strength and the need to continue to do so. This is yet one aspect of healing my soul which will eventually be made manifest in my body.
The number 12 is particularly interesting. Twelve often represents community, and that’s something I’ve known for a long time that I’ve been lacking and that I need. I’ve recently started to reach out again and have made plans to get involved in some community activities. In reading a book about Lyme disease the other day, I was reminded of how being involved in community is an important aspect of healing. People need people. Connecting with others helps us connect with our own souls and gives meaning to life. My road to healing certainly makes it’s way through community, and I need to follow where it leads.
The number 12 can be reduced to 3, and this is an important number for me right now. (Incidentally, the other day I created a paper crane mobile of 12 cranes on 3 connected pieces of driftwood… 12 birds!) This morning before the turkey visitation, I had been looking at issues surrounding the 3rd chakra. This chakra deals with personal strength, and physical issues surrounding digestion and the adrenals, which are some of the main issues I’m currently dealing with. I have been thinking of focusing on my third chakra for the last week or so, and now I feel I have extra confirmation/encouragement to pursue this direction.
All of these messages from the turkeys are immensely encouraging and offer me the direction I was asking for this morning. However, I think the main message is truly one of thanksgiving. I have come a looooong way in the past year and I have so much to be thankful for. Being thankful for my progress and all the love and blessings in my life is a major key to better health. A healthy life begins with a healthy attitude, and so, as cliche as it sounds, I’m going to keep an “attitude of gratitude” as I continue in my journey towards better health.
“I have so much to be thankful for, and that’s what I should focus on…”